Alone

Sometimes I just want to be alone. I want bleed from the deeps in peace, I want to wallow in my self inflicted misery my self created pain. I find it easy to blame myself for everying, and I find it hard to blame anyone else for anything. I may think at first that the fault belongs to another but my mind destroys me and tears me apart, I want to hate myself, it is so much easier than hating others. I don’t have to explain myself then, I don’t have to fight or argue, I accept it and I am the only one I have to fight over it. I blame myself for all my wrongs, I blame myself for all of your wrongs, it is always my fault.