Wasteing

God, I am not doing anything with my life right now. Hopefully I get the supervisor position so my job becomes full time, otherwise.... I am pathetic.

Void

Nothing. Its all gone. Everything. Any plans I do have at this point have been delayed. Any person that I have been with are gone and basically out of my life. I am really ready to move on.... and I cant. Its sad that I have to depend on others to make me happy a lot of the time, lately I have been trying to be happy on my own accord, its been working.... sorta....

Trapped

My car is gone.... er... well.... my sister took her car back. That means no more driving around and doing whatever I want, no more going to work early, no more not being home..... now all I can do is laze about my own house and moan about how my car is gone. I cant even visit people anymore. And Loren has a job now, a real job, so he cant kidnap me and haul me to Hyrum either. Once again, I am home, forever. The end.

Gracefully

Gracefully I made my way through my day doing nothing at all. It seemed as though I was doing something sometimes, but like a butterfly. I am busy doing nothing, I flap my wings around prettily, but really I am only stalling life, getting behind on what I could be doing. I could be running, calling a friend. I sit at my computer looking at nothing and doing nothing as my life passes before me.

I dont mind though

Sitting

I am sitting right now. Waiting I suppose, waiting for something to happen and come, come to distract me. They always come, but I have noticed they come less and less anymore. Lucky my sister is here. Maybe I should go take pictures, or dred, go for a run. But for now I am checking and rechecking everything I have on this computer waiting for something new to happen.


flowers from my chair, somewhat irrelevent, but I wanted to post a picture.


My sister just left, I think I am going to find something to distract myself with. Such a dismal post.

What I am right now: bored. What I will be: Distracted.